My tired heart, is beating so slow.

Sometimes, my mind races at night, and I simply cannot sleep. Do you ever get that? I hope not, because it really isn't fun. At all.
Why do I think about these things at night? Why is my motivation level so much higher? Inspiration; I feel it more strongly at night. I've asked myself so many times, why this happens.. but that causes me to think more, which makes it even harder to fall asleep. But, I like it. Weird, I know.. but life just seems so much more real in the late hours.. confusing, huh? Yea. I know. That's how my life is right now! Confusing. My heart is slowly healing, and i'm able to look past the last guy that was in my life. He is just a memory now, slowly fading.. & I am so thankful for that.
I am content in the state I am in though. Because I know I deserve SO much better than what I went through, and my amazing friends helped me realize that. I am letting God write my love story. I am going to be patient.
It feels good to vent. Why don't I write in here more often? Even if nobody is reading this, it feels good to let it go.
I hope that you get all of your hearts desires. That you are filled with joy, and that everyday you are able to sing a new song. With love. That's what I wish for you.

Take care of yourself, because YOU deserve it. You do.


  1. Hey Rychelle!

    I know what you mean! I always see life very differently at night than I do during the day. That's usually when I overview my day/days & the reason why I think SOo much at night. idk maybe thast's just me. butyea God has the perfect guy just anxiously waiting to meet you as you are to meet him. You're gonna have your Prince Charming & the wait will definitely be worth it!! I'm Praying it In! :)
    Love You!
    - Emilie Beaulieu

  2. I have stumbled across your blog...and have enjoyed reading it because I have known you for some time and get to hear some of your inner thoughts without having to ask you directly.

    venting is good. but i think there something even better. channelling the energy and effort and hopes and dream that you once would have put into the dude ( who was too old for you among other things anyways), and channel that into something good will not only be beneficial for you while you wait but also bless those around you.

  3. also you live in a world that fails, utterly and completely fails to realize the potential of those who are single. the church in general also fails at this though they tend to communicate the message more subtly.

    singleness is a gift from God, just like being in loving and healthy relationship with someone you could can learn to trust is also a gift from God. less people need to be consumed by "waiting". not saying you are but I think we all have moments. myself included.

  4. Thank you, Invisible Servant (Whoever you may be). I really appreciate what you said.